Baggage That Goes With Mine

I'm sort of awake now.

I figured I would take a brief break from saying OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW and CAN I HAVE SOME GINGER ALE PLEASEEEE? and WHY CAN'T I HAVE MORE PAIN PILLS? and "WHY ARE THESE DAMN PILLS MAKING ME PUKE? and I THINK I TOOK TOO MANY STOOL SOFTENERS!! and "MY BELLY IS SOOOOOOOO UGLY" and "BUT I THOUGHT HE SAID HE WAS GOING TO CLEAR THE TUBE! WHY DID HE NOT CLEAR THE TUBE GEO? WHY? WHY?"

to say hello.

I think if you've checked into this blog sometime this weekend you would see that things aren't going super great in Baggage land.

I think it all started Friday morning. I had to be at the surgery center at 6:30. I got up at 6:00 so all we have to do is get dressed and drive over there. But Geo gets up and says he has to take a shower. And I flipped out. NO! NO! NO SHOWER! We have to go now. They said be there promptly. Your showers are too long. We'll never be there promptly!

Then Geo has to sit out in the lobby until Bug got picked up. Meanwhile, they attempt to start an IV on me. First, they give me a shot so that the IV won't hurt. Geo questioned the logic of this later, but I just sat there and cried. "I'm afraid of needles. Really afraid. I hate them. I had to get anthrax shots and they hurt and really I'd rather not have the IV." The nurse told me to shut up. So she stuck me once and I could feel her sigh. No go. Then she stuck me a second time. No go. The other nurse said that the IV couldn't go in because I was shaking like Shakira and needed to stop.

Meanwhile, Geo comes in and I start wailing to him. (I was a model patient) "They couldn't get it in and I want it to stop! AHHHH" Then the nurse comes back in with a little shot glass full of something and I took it and then I didn't care what the hell they stuck in my arm.

Then the anesthesiologist (or someone related to that) came in and she had bought a car from Geo and that pissed me off because hey! I was the one getting the surgery. And I said, "Um, yeah, I don't want to go to surgery." And so she starts questioning me if I really want the surgery and that they can't proceed if I don't say yes. And of course, NO, I don't want the stupid-ass surgery so I say "Um, yeah, I guess" and she says "We can't proceed until you say yes!" and at this point I want to chuck my fuzzy blue slipper at her but the pink juice has made me too loopy. So I say "Yes, I want the surgery" and I jump up on my bed, my bare ass bouncing in the wind and sing, "Give me some surgery, I love surgery, please go investigate, I think you're really great!"

After that, they quickly shoved me down the hall where I saw Dr. Gel and he said "How are you?" and I said, "I'm scared" and he said "Good! Let's go!" and we went into the operating room and there were two big lights and I stared at them and the  next thing I know I woke up and Geo was there. Apparently I had surgery for about an hour and then went to the recovery room and then came back to my private room.

I had the following conversation with Geo about 900,000 times:
Me: What did they say?
Geo: They said you've got one really good ovary and tube. It went "wooosh" with the dye and it is real nice and perfect.
Me: What about the other tube?
Geo: It's pretty messed up honey. You had adhesions and they got them off of you and cleaned out your uterus good. But your other tube, it is blocked but you've got one good tube and he says you have a real good chance of babies!
Me: Oh. I don't want a bad tube.
(ten seconds later)
Me: Hey Geo, what did they say about my surgery?
Geo: They said you've got....etc.etc.etc.

Anyway, you know most of the rest of it. Here are some random things before I pass out again:

1. My belly button looks like testicles.
2. One of my scars has two marks on the side of it. I'm not sure why but it makes an arrow. Geo says the arrow points at my cha. I think it points at my non-dead ovary.
3. I am very angry about my dead ovary (Galinda) and it's associated blocked tube (Satan).
4. There have many times during the past weekend that I wish I had not made it through the surgery.
5. My landlord is selling the house I live in. So I have to move.
6. Try not throw up after abdominal surgery because it hurts like hell.
7. I have been selected as a writer for two new blogs. Both are in the initial stages, so give it some time, but if you can check them out I'd be happy. www.hollywoodsnark.com and www.realitytvobsession.com
8. My doctor just called to tell me that I do not have any STD's. So um, I've got that going for me.
9. I wanted to write ten things but I'm so tired that I think I'm going to pass out. I'm going for now.

Thank you guys for your comments, they are keeping me going.

after a long, painful

shower....

Thank goodness for capri pants!
I have tried all day to make life easy,(no not for me) and due to the depression the baggage gal feels, it has been difficult. I understand the long justifiable list for the depression. I feel bad about all of it, I hate it. But regardless, I have felt mighty frustrated between the dog, the kid, the phone, and yes the girl in the bed.... about 1100 times. Now for a tiny bit of comic relief.  After the drying off, I helped put the capri pants on I had bought a couple days ago- they were extra extra soft and 3 or 4 sizes too big. As soon as we got them up- way up. Baggage looks down, and with a goofy/in pain/massively depressed/cute voice says- " I thought these were capri's!!! "  I looked down and the super soft 8/10's were dragging the ground and acting as a support bra! Finally something to laugh about! Thank the heavens! Not the funniest thing ever. But thankfully it was a break in the gloomy sadness that even a post-surgery frowny girl had to laugh about.... It is even more funny to see the face of a girl trying sooooooooo hard not to laugh...laugh.

Goodnight all. The baggage girl I hope! will be up to speed soon. She is one sad, depressed, baggy pants wearing little cutie. I see all the greatness in the world in the right ovary being found, leaking ink, lookin' good etc... but she pretty much is sad about the other ovary still. With good reason. Maybe I celebrated the other too much, but that is how i see things. Mr Happy. Maybe I will arrange a memorial for the ovary that may not help in baby making, and give a pep talk to the one that is up and running right. Not sure, but either way. Its time for bed and last round of pills for the freshly showered one....
Geo

ouch

i want to talk about how i feel about what i findout int he surgery and what i think aboutsurgery how it whent for me incase someone else hast o have usrgery like aekkyu did for me but i can't like to her blog cuz i don't remember what buttons to push.

my stomach hurts soo fukcing bad and i took mecine after geo made me some soup it was good but i only take havlf a bpill cuz if i take one it makes me puke. I look like I am bug but really i can't figure out how type right cuz i am sleeping and i want to go sleep but i'm too hot there is a fever on me and geo had to race cuz racing is almost over he is in third which is real god and he whens some money for me.

I wish some of you live closer because i need company and I wish someone will shut Hanna montana up cuz she sing loud nd bug sing lout too and she won't be quiet. I think she sick of being quietlll then she says mommy will will go to racing i sdaid we can't go to racing she sayds she will take me in wheel chair but then she want to go to the ipt crew but she only have 5 bucksa nd it costs 25. bug wants to hug ut we can't hug cuz i broken so we blow hugs to each other. My landlord try to seel this house someone come tomorrow and look at it but i can't clean it up cuz my stomach hurts so bad and guess what else? my stomach is orange loike an oooomp loompa and I asked my dad and he said it was normal. My dad play nintendo with bug but got made cuz when bug is losing she turns off the game and star over which is cheat.

I took pain pills then i type so sorry if i am not doing a good job. I call my mom and i can't talk. Why does it hurts to bad. i have one bad tube that is bad it is broke and my ovry is bad geo says that doctor don't mess with it cuz it is eal broke and then i might get hormones messed up and he didn't wan t to give memore scar tissue o r something. I wish i had he pictures. I don't go back til end of october and it is only sept and my troat hurts. bug is not being real bad she is only made cuz she watnsts to see my cuts but they said no bandaids off until tomorow and guess what elese? I can't use a tampon or have sex for three to four weeks and also no baths but i take bath every night and i think someone should have told me that before don't you? showers are ok but baths are good for my neck and everyone keeps yelling STAND UP STRAIGHT and DON BEND YOUR KNEES UP but it feels better when i bendm y knees up and no on is watching me now so i doit cuz it hurts and dad and geo say it don't hurt too bad so i tell them i will cut their stomachs three wimes and then they will hurt and i call my mom at 4 in the morning but she always up anywayt that is good about my mom. i probably go tosleep now but if some person are there you can talk to me cuz i feel sad cuz i hurt and my ovary and tube id deas but i might still have babies and geo says the baby named snickerdodle. i think that funny. my room had a tv and a toliet and two old ladies saw me pee and one old lady put pad in my understapnd. geo gave me big fat panteis and they look dumb but imight take off but when i went to hspital i was bleeding but now im not beelding and maybe i willbe better but no ones knows but it is better than nothing right? i sorry my typing bad. i have five scars on my belly now, do you think geo will still ike my belly or think ugly?

Darn it

Baggage here again..i decided to delete my last post because I don't want to focus on the bad so much. Yes, I am very sad about the one tube and ovary. But I am also very happy that we've got one that seems good. I'm hurting a lot more than I thought I would be.

Hey guess what? My bladder had adhesions on it and now that they are gone, I don't feel like I have to pee every five seconds. I hope that sticks around because that sucked big time.

Also, the oxycodone is making me so damn sick. Any advice? If I don't take it I'm hurting like hell, if I do I'm so sick.

I'm doing a little better emotionally. I'm happy to know I have at least got a shot at a baby. I'm very sad to know that one ovary and tube is crap. And I'm a little confused about a few things regarding my surgery...for instance, why didn't they remove my ovary and tube if it was crap? Anyone know?

Ok can't type anymore. Thanks for the support.

Geo's Ovary Report

hi everyone.

The baggage gal is asleep and very mumbly. She is also very light which makes assisted potty stops a breeze... The surgery went well according to the little guy that performed the operation. He actually seemed pretty sharp.. He brought me in a variety of full color photos that looked about like you would imagine. ................wait---- I was just instructed to include that it all "hurts" and "hurts like a son-of-a-bitch when you pee"

Since I am no writer(and a guy)----
The bottom line on the pics/report from little guy: Left ovary and the tube associated will not be of assistance towards future baby plans. Too much prior damage. He said he expected this. I think we all did. But that, makes me more angry than I could describe in words... so I will just continue-Right ovary and tube that goes with it- they are both happy and clear! Some good news! I saw the dye in the full color pics. It went right on thru like it should! Seeing this made the little doc guy really happy. It made everyone happy. The rest of the procedure went fine he said. The adhesions were about like he expected, bad- but not terrible. He also said "look, you see how the uterus looks normal and how the right side tube looks clear???" I said in an intelligent tone- "yep"
The one thing I could make out was the clear and happy passage that belonged to the baggage gal's right ovary. It is very unfair and hard on the baggage girl, that her left ovary and its blocked tube are in that condition due to the worst of circumstances... I am just proud for her that from the tone in the doc's voice, and in pics even racecar driving guys could see. There is plenty of room for hope and even optimism that the bug has a GREAT chance of being an older sister. The rest of the news will come in lab results. You must excuse me. It is time for round 2 of toast and soda and maybe even some soup and crackers for the bravest, cutest, prettiest, and occasionally whiniest girl I know...
Geo